Social media has a way of presenting your life to others in the best of light. Not that it is a bad thing, but majority of people only post the good photos or share the happy moments. I do it too. But what most people don’t see, is how I seriously don’t have everything together. I have always been very responsible and organized, but since becoming a mom, I feel like I can’t remember anything any more. It is like I am stuck in this mom mode and everything else is just noise in the background. Like, my brain can only focus on Ada therefore, other things slip my mind. This became a problem for me this past week while Randy was away on business.
A few days ago I went to Target, which I use to love to do, but now it is an almost Herculean task when all Ada wants to do is scoot and climb all over the store. But this trip, I went quickly and Ada was pretty great for most of it. So I figured I could push my luck and make one more stop before going home. I wanted to go to REI to pick up Randy a birthday present for him to open when he returned.
Well, I pushed my luck too far. As soon as I got Ada into the store, she started screaming. So here I am, trying to juggle a wiggling, screaming toddler into a cart, my diaper bag, the car keys, and Ada’s precious lovie. When I finally got her into the cart, I started trying to pacify her with snacks, books, toys, and my car keys. I walked around the store for about 5 minutes when I remembered that I gave Ada the car keys. When I looked down, she no longer had them.
This started the panicky search for the car keys. I mean, I was crawling all around REI trying to find my keys. Ada was having a blast scooting around and climbing onto stairs, chairs, tables – you name it, and pulling merchandise off the shelves. I finally got an employee to help me search for my keys, but still, no luck. So now I am sitting on the floor digging everything out of my diaper bag and checking my pockets for these keys (including my bra, because who knows where I could have stuffed those keys in the middle of a toddler scream fest). After about 30 minutes of searching, I begin to cry. Yeah, sitting in the middle of REI, with my stuff dispersed all around me, with my toddler terrorizing the store and me crying. I definitely felt like my life was nothing but a sh*t show.
For a moment, I seriously didn’t know what to do. We were stranded in a store with no way to get back into my car, Ada was in a desperate need of a nap, Randy was across the country, and I have no family nearby. And even if I called a locksmith to get me into my car, I still couldn’t get us home. Oh, and to top it all off, I had groceries in the car, melting away. Yeah, I was in a pickle and I couldn’t figure a way out.
Fortunately, I have a wonderful, fantastic friend nearby who came to mine and Ada’s rescue. I am so very thankful and blessed to have such a great friend. A friend, who drops everything to come help, even when she is trying to figure out how to juggle life with a toddler, too. I am so grateful that I have a friend to share motherhood with, where there are no judgements allowed! 😉
So what is the point to this post? Nothing really. Just to share that I really don’t have it all together all the time. Most of the time, I feel like I am in survival mode. Every once in a while, I feel like superwoman – on the days I can take a shower, dress out of my yoga pants, and get dinner on the table all the while, keeping my kid in one piece! But most of the time, I am lucky to remember to brush my teeth in the mornings! After this week, I think I need this coffee mug in my life!
One thing is for certain, I am so glad that it is Friday! Happy Friday ya’ll!